so… this would be known as my first blog. ever. pretty uhmazing…i know.
and while i’m sitting here munching on my bowl of cinnamon Life cereal, i’m just contemplating the swarming thoughts that are going through my mind at the time. i always dislike how much i think and think and think. i feel as though i should have a “thinking spot” just as Winnie the Pooh does…hmm. maybe i’ll invest in one. :)
a few moments ago i was chatting with my good friend, levi, about past times when we were children, discussing the time the entire 2nd grade class came to my house for an easter egg hunt…oh the days when life was SIMPLE…no worries or stress of any kind. then i got to wondering if i had the chance to live my life again what would i do different? so many things come to mind that i would have changed. i think one thing i would have changed was my relationship with my sister lauren. i’d like to be closer with her and the best way it could have happened was when she still came around during the days of being at home. and as the days progress it seems more of a challenge to keep in touch with her or even see her in person. it saddens me. one other major thing i would have done differently (and granted i’ve NEVER told anyone this…so it’s good that few people will even read this) and it is difficult for me to even admit to myself, but i would have never broke things off with conor carlton. i loved him with all my heart…and have never told him. after the ended relationship and agreement to be friends, my life felt empty and i regretted the decision with every fiber of my being. he meant the world to me…and still does. but i’m afraid he’ll never know. plus i don’t have the courage to even BEGIN describing how i’ve felt for him.
needless to say…live life carefully. and with no regrets. or else! haha…
that’s it folks. my first blog. and i feel better already. :)
“she was so tough her poodle skirt had a bulldog on it.”
-anonymous”